Wedding planning

Well the wedding planning is still pretty stressful. We decided our date is January 21, 2012. My colors are black, pearly white, baby blue, and damask. I know damask isn't a color but I want it to be everywhere with my colors so YEAH! It really feels like I'm not making any progress on anything. It sucks feeling that way. People tell me it's fine I have plenty of time but listen people...9 months goes by fast....and I'm NOT about to procrastinate to the last second. I can't do that to myself...But anyways. Can you believe it was a year ago this month I started getting ready to go to Indiana? I can't believe it's been a year. It's actually pretty sad to think about. I loved being there. Gabe and I both feel so homesick for it. I loved being around the family all the time. Being around the sweet little babies. I miss it a ton. I miss the beautiful green grass and trees. There was green everywhere. You were constantly surrounded. I need that. I need to see life everywhere. I need to breathe fresh clean farm air. I miss it so much it makes me want to cry thinking about it. The air never looked gray or polluted. I really want to live there but thinking about being so far from MY family makes me want to cry even more...It's probably going to be one of the hardest decisions of my life when Gabe and I get to that point in life. I kinda dread it. Especially since I've gotten so close with my dad lately. I don't know how well I'd be able to handle not seeing him for really long periods of time. I know there's the simple phone call but he's such a busy guy it's almost impossible for him to just sit down and have a casual conversation. O well. I can't dwell on it right now or else I'll just be depressed the rest of the day. Today is a beautiful day and I hope Gabe and I will get out and do something fun. Maybe we'll take Shelby out somewhere so she can run around and play. I don't know if anything is going to happen today though if I can't peel Gabe away from the guitar......I'm just grateful it's not the xbox this time!