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I realize who ever may read this probably thinks jeez this kid has issues. Right now times are just tough again. My health is going down the crapper and my parents...well...they're still the same. Stubborn and everything's worse for them because they're the adults with lives and I'm just the ignorant child. It's so stressful. I can't find a job. I'm running out of money. I have bills to pay. Luckily my parents are helping with them right now but my mom likes to use it against me in her famous guilt trips. I'm trying hard! I don't know what else to do. My mother tells me to pray about it which I DO. I find that hypocritical though seeing as how she RARELY gets on her knees to pray when she's going through tough times. Everyone's being so hypocritical and that's NOT what I need right now. I don't know what else to do. I just need out of this stupid place. I hate this city. There's nothing here for me. Yes my family's here but I just can't handle it. I'm not happy. I'm completely miserable. I understand that tons of people have it harder than me in life but everyone can only handle so much. I know God won't give us more than we can't handle but in all my trials I feel like I get pushed to the very edge. My mom wonders why I don't talk to her about these things, and talk to her about why I'm so upset and emotional. Maybe it's because she doesn't even listen. Because she's more concerned about herself and only focuses on how she has it so much harder. Maybe I'm being too harsh about things but this is just how I see it. I don't know what else to vent. My brain's frazzled. So this is it for now.