Aah!

Amidst all the chaos I forgot to post GABE GOT A JOB! He starts tomorrow and we're so excited. Thanks to his cousin, Tim, he's going to start out as a dishwasher/prep cook at the Half Shell. This is an answer to prayers. Things were startin to get a lil scary. We weren't sure if he was going to be able to find a job or not then BOOM within pretty much a week he got this job lined up. Can't wait for him to start working again. I know it'll help him feel better and we'll finally be able to start preparing for life again!

WOW

So! I figured I should finally do an update on everything! I can't remember where I left off of...but...Here we go! October 7th was my endoscopy...they couldn't find anything but my liver enzyme levels were still sky rocketing and I was getting jaundice. It was awful and the doctor was really concerned so he sent me in the very next day for an MRI. So Oct 8th was my MRI. That's when I started getting results. Found out my gall bladder was a third full with stones! FINALLY! I knew it was my gall bladder....I knew it was...They scheduled an appointment with amazing Dr. Hofflander Oct 14th, I went in, we discussed, 2 hours later...if even that...I was being registered for surgery that very day! So October 14, 2010 my gall bladder was removed around....5 pm! I went home and woke Gabe up every 3 hours so he could take me pee. Bless his heart. I was in so much pain tho I couldn't go by myself. Plus I'd end up getting really dizzy and would pretty much have to run back to the couch before I puked. During all this my period had started the 7th...and I kept bleeding...and bleeding....and bleeding..graphic I know, I'm sorry. It wasn't stopping and I was losing HUGE clots every single day....Like 5 during a day. It was going on over 30 days and I was getting really worried so I went and saw Dr. Swainston. He did an ultrasound on me and saw cysts on my ovaries and a thickened endometrium and the starting of fybroids on my uterus so he decided I should get a D/C done before I turn anemic. So November 24th I got a D/C done and got all scraped out. Interesting procedure to have done before Thanksgiving but I'm very grateful for doctors who are here to help me. My body is still really out of wack and I'm still on the mend but I hope this is the start of better things to come. Now we just have to get my thyroid back on track and all that fun stuff. But it was eatin at me to update my blog! But as everyone will see it's been a CRAZY couple of months! Year really but the past 2 months has been jam packed with stuff happening. So there you have it! My health update as of November 28, 2010.

Christmas in 27 days??... Really??....

Conference Weekend...

I LOVE conference weekend. I love how it makes me feel. I love how it's always during beautiful times of the year, April and October. I love hearing all the speakers and all the different stories they have to share. Especially when they share personal stories. I love our prophet, Thomas S. Monson. He is so stinkin' cute. I just wanna kiss his cheek! I love his smile when he's sharing a funny story. I love how he laughs with everyone at his own story.    

I'm grateful conference has been able to take my mind off these hectic past 2 months. Dealing with Shelby and my weird attacks has just been tiring and stressful. Shelby's almost completely better now, bless her. She's been through so much. So many surgeries and stitches. We're almost to the end! As for me, this Thursday I'll be going in for an endoscopy. Kind of nervous, but also looking forward to getting answers...hopefully. For some reason part of me strongly feels it really is my gallbladder...But we won't know till Thursday (hopefully). ON A HAPPIER more EXCITING note..GABE'S COMING IN TOWN TUESDAY!! Aah I can't wait! I'm so excited! I miss him so much. I just need him. I know it's not good to be so dependent on a person...but dang it...I am! I love him so very much. He's my best friend and I've been having some serious separation anxiety. Well, I think that's all for now. Time to listen to that adorable guy speak again :)

OMG...

I suck at blogging lately! A lot has happened! August 28, 2010 we went and saw Michael Buble at the MGM Grand Garden Arena. AMAZING! It felt like a dream. It still doesn't feel real or like it even happened. He was so amazing in concert. He's so funny too. I wish I could be his friend somehow lol. He just seems like the fun kind of guy to just hang out with. The kind of friend where you could just be loungin around at home doing NOTHING but will still be laughin your head off just from the voices he can do and his impressions of people. I loved it. He is so talented. First we went to Rainforest Cafe for dinner. That's always fun. The food is never that great, but it's just the environment that makes it fun. Puts you in the mood for a fun night. WHICH IT WAS!! We got home really late but it was sooo worth it! I wish I could go again, but bring Gabe this time. He was bummed out he couldn't be there and so was I. I really wanted him to go. O well. Maybe next time! The man's voice gives me chills...ugh...




It was really sweet, he even sang a song for his grandpa. His grandpa requested that he sing "Stardust" so he sang it for him. His whole family was there since this was his last concert for the tour. Really sweet experience.

Broadview Security...

I can't get enough of this spoof. It is HILARIOUS!

Time!...

Where does time go?! Before I know it weeks have gone by since I've written! It's crazy...So I went to the doctor last week and he thinks I might have a hiatal hernia, or an ulcer. Gall stones could still be a possibility as well. Lucky LUCKY me, eh?? I just really hope I can find out soon what it really is. I'm sick of this random pain under my ribs. I'm very glad I haven't had anymore attacks though. Those were really bad...Other than that I'm still looking for a job. Then again who isn't?! It's just crazy here. I want out! I'm tired of all the heat too. It wouldn't be as bad if I had a pool in my backyard! But, unfortunately, I don't :( Darn it. In 9 days it'll be mine and Gabe's 1 year anniversary! Insane...I hope there are many more years to come. That same weekend is the Barney reunion in Utah. I'm excited for that. My dad doesn't know it yet but my mom and I are going to go up on Saturday and surprise him :) It'll be fun. Plus I'll finally be able to see my nephews again! I miss them so much. It's been way too long. I think that's all for now. I'll write more later!

Alone...

I wish I had a younger sibling at home. I wouldn't be lonely. I wouldn't have to watch stupid shows by myself. Yeah they're stupid, but fun to watch! Gabe's not texting me for some reason. He probably fell asleep. I might as well go to bed soon. Nothing else to do. Plus I still feel pissed about him talking to his ex. He's still kinda buddy buddy with her. Which I HATE! He wouldn't like it if I were all buddy buddy with my ex. It's just annoying, but I know I need to approach him about it otherwise he'll never know it irritates me. O well. Same crap, different day. Blah. I hate being in a bad mood! I know it's my own fault, but I just can't seem to shake it!

Blah...

Home...

Home from Indiana. I miss it so much. I just feel like I don't even belong in Vegas anymore. It's just an ugly place. I miss Indiana so much, it's sickening. I miss the green. I miss all the LIVING plants and grass and trees. I miss the clean air. I miss the rain. I miss the beautiful sunsets. Most importantly, I miss Gabe. I miss him more than anything. I feel like my other half is missing. I didn't know what to do with myself after he left. I'm no longer used to being by myself. I'm really going to miss his hugs and kisses...and his adorable sweet face. Especially when I would just look over at him and he'd smile and wink at me. It's the simple things that melt my heart. I love him so very much....

In the Words of Satan - The Arrows

This is a really powerful video. It might be kind of intense for some of you, but it has an incredibly powerful message. Just focus on the words...

Bittersweet...mostly bitter...

I'm going home June 30th. I really don't want to...Yes I miss my family and the few friends I have there but I'm so happy here. I've lost weight because I'm not as stressed. I'm happy here! I have people to hang out with and talk to. I'm NEVER alone. Unlike life back home. I get so lonely back there. I love it here so much. I never thought I'd say this but I'm getting used to the humidity. I don't mind it as much. I still sweat like a beast but I've come to the conclusion that that's just me. It runs in my blood. I love Gabe's family. They make me feel like I'm apart of the family. As if I've been around the whole time. I love his nieces and nephew. They are so sweet and cute. It's going to be so hard to say goodbye to everyone. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I'm going to miss all the green...all the rain/thunder/lightning storms. They are AMAZING here. I won't miss the tornado warnings...HA! But everything else...O I won't miss the ticks and spiders either...but everything else, I definitely will miss. Well I better get back to the boy. Gotta spend as much time with him as I can. I love him a ton!

Horrible!....

I am HORRIBLE at blogging lately. I've been in Indiana since April 28th so I've been pretty occupied since then. Things are going great here. I love it here. It's so green and beautiful and I LOVE Gabe's family. I feel so close to them like I've known them my whole life. They are really a great group of people. I'm sad I'll be leaving them soon but hopefully not permanently. Anyways that's all for now. Gabe should be home from work soon...I hope. I love that guy....

Sincerely, Amber

Jeffrey R Holland...

Such an amazing man. He came to our stake conference yesterday. Besides the prophet...he's definitely my favorite. He is such an amazing speaker. So powerful. He gave me chills and brought tears to my eyes multiple times. I wish every single member of this church could've been there. He gave our stake a personal blessing. It was an amazing thing to witness. I know I keep saying amazing a lot but that's the only way I know how to describe my feelings. I was in awe. Something that really hit me is when he said "I did NOT dedicate my life to a fairy tale." That hit me like you can't believe. Why would he, or any other apostle or prophet or any member of this church, dedicate their entire lives to a church that was not true? They wouldn't. I know for a fact this is the only true church on earth. I am so grateful and so incredibly blessed to have been born and raised in it. It terrifies me to think where I might be today had I not been born a member. I might not even be alive. This gospel has saved my life. It has brought so many wonderful people into my life. So many people who have impacted my life. It's because of them that I'm still around today. I wish I could go back in time to yesterday just to hear him speak all over again. Such an incredible man who loves truly loves this gospel and every member in it. I really wish Gabe could've been there. He deserves to have an experience like that. I know I will never forget that day...February 7, 2010. I know, without a doubt in my heart and mind, that this is the true church. Knowing that brings me such peace. But, I must be going to bed now. So goodbye for now...

Ugh

This week's been crap. Gabe's gone, my mom's been acting weird, so has my dad, my mom is back to telling me how overweight and out of shape I am. I can't stand it. I never feel good enough. My dad says I manage myself like a 5 yr old. So now I'm going to spend the rest of the night looking at different lap band sites.

Goodnight!

GABE!

He's been here for a week for my birthday and it's been amazing! I love him!

Emotional?

It's random but I feel emotional all of a sudden...I started listening to Susan Boyle's new cd and the first song is Wild Horses. Originally done by the Rolling Stones but honestly...I'll take her version any day. It's just beautiful...I feel all lovey too. I'm just completely in love with Gabe. He's an incredible blessing in my life. He makes me so happy. Of course there's the occasional head butting. But what human doesn't have that happen in life? We ALWAYS end up working it out soon after. I'm so grateful for his love and his patience. Long distance is tough but he's so worth it. I know everyone else thinks I'm crazy for it. But I'm happy and that's all that really matters. Well I guess I better get to bed so I don't sleep all day tomorrow! Lord knows I'm good at that!
Here's the song...


Goodnight!

Holy night....

Christmas came and went...New years happened...Now it's almost January 3rd! I'm REALLY falling behind... AMAZING news though! Gabe's coming January 14th for my birthday! That's in 2 weeks! I'm so excited I can't stand it! It's finally happening...I need to go to bed now though seeing as how church starts at 9 am now. Whoopee....

Goodnight!