House sitting...

I'm finally done house sitting! That was probably the longest weekend of my life. I thought I was gunna go crazy! My cousins fight way too much! They're at each others throats over every little thing. I couldn't stand it. I don't know if I can do that again for a while...heh...It was so nice to not wake up to fighting this morning. Or a howling cat that's about to crap on the floor. Yeah. Definitely won't miss that. Alright well that's it for now.

Bye!

Great Results...

So I went to the doctor yesterday to get my blood work results. Finally I got some good news! I cut my high cholesterol in half!!!!!!!!! I did so good! My doctor was so proud of me AND, for once, my mom! Her jaw dropped. She never believed me when I would tell her I'm eating better. So this finally proved it to her! Man. I was on top of the world yesterday. I finally proved to myself I could do something. I didn't realize how easy it kinda was. All I did was stop eating french fries, cut out a lot of sugar and junk food. I feel tons better. I've been eating A LOT of fruit lately. I've gained weight though thanks to birth control. I'm getting off that at the end of the month though, so I should start losing weight like I'm supposed to. So I'm pretty proud of myself. I haven't been this proud of myself...ever? I don't know. But anyways. I better go do something productive.

G'day!

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I realize who ever may read this probably thinks jeez this kid has issues. Right now times are just tough again. My health is going down the crapper and my parents...well...they're still the same. Stubborn and everything's worse for them because they're the adults with lives and I'm just the ignorant child. It's so stressful. I can't find a job. I'm running out of money. I have bills to pay. Luckily my parents are helping with them right now but my mom likes to use it against me in her famous guilt trips. I'm trying hard! I don't know what else to do. My mother tells me to pray about it which I DO. I find that hypocritical though seeing as how she RARELY gets on her knees to pray when she's going through tough times. Everyone's being so hypocritical and that's NOT what I need right now. I don't know what else to do. I just need out of this stupid place. I hate this city. There's nothing here for me. Yes my family's here but I just can't handle it. I'm not happy. I'm completely miserable. I understand that tons of people have it harder than me in life but everyone can only handle so much. I know God won't give us more than we can't handle but in all my trials I feel like I get pushed to the very edge. My mom wonders why I don't talk to her about these things, and talk to her about why I'm so upset and emotional. Maybe it's because she doesn't even listen. Because she's more concerned about herself and only focuses on how she has it so much harder. Maybe I'm being too harsh about things but this is just how I see it. I don't know what else to vent. My brain's frazzled. So this is it for now.

Blood work...

So I had to get more blood work done today. What a joy! The lady was rude and up tight... She spoke in a monotone voice and never smiled. Those kinds of people scare me. Especially when they work with needles... Even though I didn't like her, I have to admit she was fast. And that definitely helped. I'm sick of getting blood work done though! Bring on the pills. Sadly. I'm only 19 years old. I shouldn't have to be on all these pills. But I'm certain this is my trial in life, among other things. I'm starting to really like this blog thing. Even though it's only my second time using it. It allows me to vent and it doesn't talk back :) Gotta appreciate that as a woman. Well I'm not sure what else to write. My mind's kind of in a daze since I woke up from a late nap just a lil bit ago. So this is it for now.

Goodnight!

No idea...

I have no idea how to use this blog thing...but I guess when the time comes where I need to vent or somethin it'll come in handy, eh??