Thanksgiving

This year we went to Emily and Jeremy's for Thanksgiving. It was so much fun. Kris, Becky, Evie, and Maddie came too. It's been so long since we've had everyone together like that. The weather was beautiful. Cold but beautiful! On Friday we went to This Is The Place monument and went on the little train ride there. The kids loved it. Afterwards we walked around the different little pioneer homes and saw some horses and baby cows. Oh my goodness they were so cute! Their hair was still soft and wispy. So cute. Sadly on Saturday we came home. I miss my boys so much. Justin wouldn't let go of me. He held me so tight and begged me to stay or tried to get me to take him home. I wish I could've. I wish I could've brought them ALL home with me! It was such a fun trip. Short but fun. We need more like those in our lives. I love my family so much and miss having them close to me. Thank goodness for phones and facebook!

I'm horrible...

I've been so bad at updating my blog these past few months! It's not like I don't have time... I have plenty of time! I guess not a lot has been happening lately. However I did just go to lunch at Olive Garden with Sis VanBuskirk and Sara. It was so fun. It was good to hear about Daniel. He's doing such a great job on his mission. I'm so proud of him. Gabe and I are still doing quite well. He makes me so happy. He's so stinkin cute. My calling is still a little crazy. Primary in general is just crazy. Those kids are nuts! But pretty cute at the same time. We're going to Emily's in a couple weeks for Thanksgiving! I'm so excited! I miss my boys! They're gettin so big. Ethan's talking A LOT more now. And of course I'm not there to see it! AND THEN if all goes well...I'll fly to Indiana December 6th to see Gabe! I hope I can. I'm getting so excited. But that's pretty much all that's going on for now. I'll try to write sooner if I remember. Ha!

Happy Veteran's Day!

I did it!

Today I got my patriarchal blessing! I'm a lover. It talked about how my I love people and how much I will help them. I am so happy and so proud of myself. I will never forget this day. Ever.

My Gosh!

I just realized it's been over a month since I've updated anything! Aah! I'm a little behind I suppose but I don't think anything has even happened really. I haven't gone anywhere...I haven't done anything. I'm still trying to find work and my sister's still trying to get me to move back to Vegas. It's a little hard though when you are flat broke, heh. Um today was a good day though. We're starting practice for the primary program. I felt like a little kid again. I couldn't stop fidgitting! Those poor kids. I remember it all too well and now I get to do it all over again! The kids are so cute though. It's so hard to stay flustered at them. That's pretty much all that's going on right now. OH! I'm getting my patriarchal blessing on the 18th. At least that's the goal but I might have to change it so my dad can come. And my sister might come down too :D I hope she can! That would be perfect. I wish Gabe could be there too but he's a couple thousand miles away right now, heh. O well. In due time. Anyways I better get to bed. Evie's third birthday party is tomorrow! She's getting so big. Where does time go!?

Goodnight!

Sleep...

I can't seem to fall asleep for some reason. Maybe it's because I haven't actually tried...blah! Why is it late at night you remember all the little things you need to get done so you decide to do them even though your dead tired?? And to think my mom's waking me up in 4 hours so we can go walking. I'm going to be a zombie! So I suppose I should try and hit the sack. I'll hopefully write more later today.

G'night!

Dreams...

So Gabe's mom had a dream about me. Clear back in the beginning of July before she even knew me. She dreamt I was Gabe's wife. I got the weirdest feeling when he told me. It was a feeling of comfort. Like that was what's going to happen. Since I've met Gabe everything's been amazing. Of course life still has its ups and downs but that's life! I just feel great about life now since I know where I'm headed somewhat. I'm so grateful for the power of prayer and for the closeness of my Heavenly Father. I'm so grateful to know that he's always listening. I love getting good answers to prayers! The rest of my life is going to be a blast!

Life

I've met the man who's going to change my life. I am so happy.

I just realized it's been a while since I've updated my blog. We got home from Utah yesterday afternoon. Dad and I went up for Aunt Wonnie's funeral. It was a nice service. Lots of good memories. It was fun hanging out with Heather again. Felt like old times. Dad got to spend a lot of time with the boys so that was nice. I feel stressed for some reason. I need to do something with my life but I don't know what. I feel like going crazy though. I need a change. Blah.

G'day.

July

I can't believe July's here already. I spent the first week of it at Kris's house. He had a little surgery and Becky needed a lil help with the girls. So I was more than willing of course. I got to hold Maddie for hours! I loved it. She is so cute and squishy. Evie is sassy as ever. She's so funny tho. She clasps her hands together and bats her eyelashes at you. She is so cute. The cutest little girls I have ever seen. Until I have my own of course...I miss them already. It was fun to spend time with my brother. I rarely get to see him. So I loved being able to spend time with him. This year is just flying by. It is crazy. I'll be turning 20 in 6 months. It's scary really. I still feel like I'm 7. I still ACT like I'm 7. So there could be some trouble. I'm still trying to find work. It's so hard. I might just go look for work in Utah. I miss it so much up there. I know it's where I'm supposed to be. I'm much happier up there. So shoot. Things are lookin up with the boy. We'll see how long that lasts. Well that is it for now I think.

Goodnight!

House sitting...

I'm finally done house sitting! That was probably the longest weekend of my life. I thought I was gunna go crazy! My cousins fight way too much! They're at each others throats over every little thing. I couldn't stand it. I don't know if I can do that again for a while...heh...It was so nice to not wake up to fighting this morning. Or a howling cat that's about to crap on the floor. Yeah. Definitely won't miss that. Alright well that's it for now.

Bye!

Great Results...

So I went to the doctor yesterday to get my blood work results. Finally I got some good news! I cut my high cholesterol in half!!!!!!!!! I did so good! My doctor was so proud of me AND, for once, my mom! Her jaw dropped. She never believed me when I would tell her I'm eating better. So this finally proved it to her! Man. I was on top of the world yesterday. I finally proved to myself I could do something. I didn't realize how easy it kinda was. All I did was stop eating french fries, cut out a lot of sugar and junk food. I feel tons better. I've been eating A LOT of fruit lately. I've gained weight though thanks to birth control. I'm getting off that at the end of the month though, so I should start losing weight like I'm supposed to. So I'm pretty proud of myself. I haven't been this proud of myself...ever? I don't know. But anyways. I better go do something productive.

G'day!

Blah

I realize who ever may read this probably thinks jeez this kid has issues. Right now times are just tough again. My health is going down the crapper and my parents...well...they're still the same. Stubborn and everything's worse for them because they're the adults with lives and I'm just the ignorant child. It's so stressful. I can't find a job. I'm running out of money. I have bills to pay. Luckily my parents are helping with them right now but my mom likes to use it against me in her famous guilt trips. I'm trying hard! I don't know what else to do. My mother tells me to pray about it which I DO. I find that hypocritical though seeing as how she RARELY gets on her knees to pray when she's going through tough times. Everyone's being so hypocritical and that's NOT what I need right now. I don't know what else to do. I just need out of this stupid place. I hate this city. There's nothing here for me. Yes my family's here but I just can't handle it. I'm not happy. I'm completely miserable. I understand that tons of people have it harder than me in life but everyone can only handle so much. I know God won't give us more than we can't handle but in all my trials I feel like I get pushed to the very edge. My mom wonders why I don't talk to her about these things, and talk to her about why I'm so upset and emotional. Maybe it's because she doesn't even listen. Because she's more concerned about herself and only focuses on how she has it so much harder. Maybe I'm being too harsh about things but this is just how I see it. I don't know what else to vent. My brain's frazzled. So this is it for now.

Blood work...

So I had to get more blood work done today. What a joy! The lady was rude and up tight... She spoke in a monotone voice and never smiled. Those kinds of people scare me. Especially when they work with needles... Even though I didn't like her, I have to admit she was fast. And that definitely helped. I'm sick of getting blood work done though! Bring on the pills. Sadly. I'm only 19 years old. I shouldn't have to be on all these pills. But I'm certain this is my trial in life, among other things. I'm starting to really like this blog thing. Even though it's only my second time using it. It allows me to vent and it doesn't talk back :) Gotta appreciate that as a woman. Well I'm not sure what else to write. My mind's kind of in a daze since I woke up from a late nap just a lil bit ago. So this is it for now.

Goodnight!

No idea...

I have no idea how to use this blog thing...but I guess when the time comes where I need to vent or somethin it'll come in handy, eh??